The Cusp of Understanding

After a few years in school, I'm sick of almost understanding real Math/Physics.  Constantly I don't have the extra minutes needed to look up or find out a very specific phrase or mathematical trick. Its like learning a language mostly and living in a country of native speakers, and having no dictionary or way to get the new information quicker. I want to know more, everyday I want to know more. If this were some previous time period, I would keep my teacher up all hours never stopping..... but it's not. So instead I simply add to the hits on Wikipedia.  ... To another day of discovery........   amazing .... it will never end.......  Life is wonderful  .... if only for this reason.

No really....... Honroable Mention

Is it necessarily Honorable to just mention ......

Honorable Mention

Honorable Mention...... that's it. No more honorable mentions.

The Edge of Understanding

It seems as though there should be so much more out there to learn. There isn't. Instead there is a mass of task to be done in order to get to the next big step. At least i will being working on some of those task. I can only hope the next big step is sooner than later. Who knows....

Sleep....., no, not to sleep

Throughout my life I have had a simplistic difficulty when confronted with an overnight perplexity.

I simply can't sleep if I have not resolved at least how to go about solving the problem. Strength or weakness is difficult to assess, especially at the point in which I am now without a good days rest..... I would like to think that the problems I encounter are of some monumental importance to mankind. Alas, they are the slight imperfections of day to day existence that do settle well with me. I believe in absolutes. I want repeated verification of this within my own relationships in order to feel comfortable. A tough task for anyone, even when not dealing with a cunning linguistic adversary such as myself. i feel as though I don't want to change this trait so much as augment it to n be more productive towards my success. Maybe this is the problem that will vex my psyche tonight. Hasta proxima tiempo, adios!

The Inability to Let go

By an impossible desire I had at some point convinced myself that there was a reasonable amount of the population that thought about things before they made choices. I cannot remove the statistical implications of exit polling from the November presidential election. The national exit polls show that America has not overcome race. It is a universal fact. I do not want to argue the points, you can see it for yourself. Whether you look at the African American % of around 96%for Barrack, or the White above 25 age range percent that looms between 40%-42%. Perhaps you thing that the White vote is reasonable??!!. Then take into account that the largest victory margin ever in American History was 26.2 %(Warren G. Harding) This would lend to a 20 point margin victory for McCain if only these votes were counted. This Population accounts for 63% of Americans! Do I revert to expletives?
The issue I have is that Barrack Obama won by the largest margin in history for a non-incumbent president. Yet, the majority white population doesn't favor him. We can argue Politics all day, but historically it is almost implausible that a Republican candidate would win with George Bushes (popularity and ongoing war).

I know things take time to change. I am just frustrated that we as a people obviously do not make intelligent decisions. Back to the herd i go........


Statistics can be checked at http://www.cnn.com/ELECTION/2008/results/polls/#USP00p1

as well as many other independent websites

I simply am amazed at the power of a deadline. It does not matter how weak or feeble the deadline is. The simple suggestion that there is a time limit on a task is so much more powerful than any self willingness, it is sad.

Making a list and checking it ......no seriously, how many things can you forget to do when your whole house is what needs fixing. This never ending battle has to stop....... yes logically it does not make sense, but since when does that matter to humans